Ramblings

The walls are closing onto me

There is no respite, only despair

Pills I swallow, to numb the pain

Is it for real ? Or all a gimmick ?

Clearer thoughts, I’d hope to get

Clouded mind, the usual chaos

I breathe in deep, I breathe out loud

Heartbeat rising, I feel myself drown

Eyelids closing, the world shuts out

Darkness ignites, I burn to flames

A moment of truth, a word slipped by

Haunts me forever,  uncertainty resides

In spite it all, despite I fall

Yet again, I’ll give it a try morrow

Stabbed in the back, wrists slashed deep

I still yearn to feel, I want to live

A canvas I paint, it never sets

My story just begins, nowhere near the end.